I have no reason. I’ve been doing nothing for almost 4 months now . I’ve gained like 20 pounds . I have no friends . I’m running out of money . Dropping out of university . Can’t get a job . I hate everything and everyone around me . I didn’t choose to be so unhappy . But when nothing ever goes right I can’t help but just say fuck it . Like what is the fucking point . This shouldn’t be this fucking hard . Like what the fuck did I do to deserve this . I try so hard and like nothing . I have no motivation for anything anymore . Like the only reason why I don’t fucking go . Is because my boyfriend he’s all I have and he tries so hard to keep me happy he’s all I have … The only reason I don’t do something to end this . Because I want him to focus on his school ad gettin awsome grades . My life revolves around him . All i do is wait for his calls or wait to hang out . When I’m not with him I’m just nothing . I want this to end . I would if i could . My thoughts haunt me everyday. I want this to stop . Fat broke worthless stupid waste of life .